So... where to start... well, I have been around. You know that saying: "when you feel like you are at the end of your rope, tie knot and hold on" I have felt like I have been spiraling to the end of my rope for the last couple months.
Honestly, I have been overly stressed at work. It's our busy season, and it's finally starting to wrap up. I am incredibly blessed to have the job that I have, so I don't want to sound like I am complaining about work - which I am not. I don't think that saying that I am stressed is complaining, just stating a fact. The beginning of the year is extremely overwhelming for all of us. The hours caused me to have to miss gym time, and it has cost me quite a bit.
Again, not complaining... stating a fact. I had to work, nothing wrong with that.
I had to miss a competition, because even though my coach invited me and was confident I would do well, I was not confident in myself. Not one little bit... I was afraid that I wasn't ready. I was afraid my cardio would be crap, and I wouldn't last the entire fight.
Let's not even get started on my eating... needless to say, I have NOT been on track. However, Brandon and I decided to try the Ketogenic diet... Today was day 1 - not entirely bad, but different. The first day is usually the easiest for me, so let me check back in with you in a few days.
My hormones... have been a little messed up. I attribute that to lack of exercise, horrible diet, and everything in between unfortunately. It doesn't help that I am on round 2 of progesterone... Hopefully this will help us get pregnant. My hormones make me feel crazy right now. One minute, I am fine. The next minute, I want to scream and cry. It has caused me to lose motivation, and basically feel like I have given up on myself.
I am slowly finding my way back to me. It's an extremely slow process, but I am doing my best.