Case of the Mondays

Just a quick update today… I.HATE.MONDAYS!

I got up and went to the gym this morning and had trouble waking up. I was walking on the tread and just when I would zone out; I would stagger and feel like I was falling off. This is why I don’t like treadmills. I don’t feel I have enough balance to just let go while I am on it. I feel like I am going to fall off, which I do not under any circumstances want to do.

Then!! I got home, pulled my car in the garage, and didn’t feel like I had the energy to get out and go in the house. I sat there feeling like I was dozing off for about 5 minutes. It could have been longer, I could have fallen asleep… who knows. I go in the house and went straight to the couch, which so is not normal for me. Usually, once I am up and the blood is pumping, I am awake. Might not be happy that I am awake, but I can at least function.

Lucy, my pup, jumped on the couch and tried to hand me her favorite toy, which I normally throw for her. Not this morning. I just looked at her, in all her panting puppy happiness and I just couldn’t help but wonder what it’s like to be her. She is so happy when I come through the door; even I go out long enough to take the trash out. It’s like she hasn’t seen me in years! If I go into the bathroom, she lays in the hallway waiting for me. She is always ready to play and is my little shadow.

Finally after her nudging my arm towards her toy, I threw it. A couple throws later, I pry myself off the couch and get in the shower. I got out of the house about 10 minutes later than usual; making me miss the 7:10 train for work.

I am still sleepy, but it’s starting to pass. I have food in my system now and am drinking water, so hopefully I will feel like my regular self soon.

Why so sleepy on Mondays??

New Pants and a Give Away!

So, I took yesterday off work. Why? Well, digestive issues that I totally and completely blame on my gall bladder; or lack of one. Ever since my surgery, my insides have never been the same. And it’s been a pain in my butt (literally) ever since. My system only enjoys foods that are bland and have almost no taste. Anything that tastes good, well… causes me to have some issues and I hate it!

BUT!! Thanks in part to this issue, and my desire to not be a fat kid anymore; I have been noticing that my jeans have been getting loose. So loose in fact, I had to use a belt. Then, this belt caused the jeans to bunch up to much; I decided that it might be time to get a new pair of pants one size down.

Once I thought my insides were settled enough for a trip outdoors yesterday, I ran to the bank and then headed to the G.C. Goodwill. I figure if I am going to have to buy clothing that will only be temporarily housed in my closet, I am NOT buying brand new… that gets expensive.

I went to the jeans, and one of the first pairs I looked at were exactly the size I needed! I figured it was fate, so I grabbed them up. I also found 2 other pairs, all 3 different cuts and fits. Hey, a girl has to have variety. 13 bucks later, I am the proud owner of 3 pairs of pants that are a size smaller than what I had originally.

They will take a little bit more work to fit comfortably, BUT I got them on button and zipped without having to lie down and use pliers to pull the zipper! I could even breathe once they were on!! So, now that I have gotten a new hint of motivation, I can’t wait to get to work! Tomorrow, I am and WILL attend my first Zumba class. Even if I suck, at least I will be moving!

So, up for grabs is 2 pair of pants that are too large for me. I know if I keep them in my closet, then I will have fat clothes to go back to, and guess what? I am never going back! One pair is a size 22 from Lane Bryant. The other pair is 44 waist, 30 length (I think) Arizona Brand. Yes, I also have men’s jeans. They fit better on me and men’s jeans are made with more of a fit variety.

Message me if you want in on my new found motivation!  (pictures to follow later!)

Frustrated and Hot!!

The road to my goal weight is paved with… well it’s not paved at all. It’s an extremely hard uphill hiking course. It’s steep and rocky and well… it makes me want to sit down and eat everything I see. Why? Well because I am getting discouraged and tired.

Call me masochistic, but I would enjoy it thoroughly if Jillian Michaels came to my house and kicked my ass for a week. I would welcome her into my home with open arms, and then drop and give her 20. She could scream in my face all day long if she wanted to, as long as she was willing to hold the tissue for me while I crumbled at her feet; or throw up… which ever happened first. My money would be on throwing up though, since I have already been there and done that. I have been watching her new show “Losing It with Jillian” and what I wouldn’t give to be in these people’s shoes, once Jillian is there of course.

Too bad she is in LA and I am here in the oven, respectively known as St. Louis… we are in a serious heat wave right now. I think I lost 10 pounds cutting my back yard the other night… seriously, it’s HOT!!

I have a lot of ideas rolling around in my head, but I don’t want to step on toes from other blogs. I have some really good motivational ideas too, but not sure if they would work or not… And I have been doing some reading that I would like to share as well.

What would you like first??